Freewrite #1

Loneliness is the anxiety that you do not matter at all.”
The truth has never been said more perfectly. Through out all my life, and especially in middle school, that has been a major part of me. (all of my life except high school) Having no friends is one thing but having no friends and feeling like you don't matter to anyone is another. Imagine the people who love you, parents, siblings, grandparents and relatives; now imagine how lonely you must feel in order to say that you do not matter to those people. It's a horrible situation to be in. Also, feeling this lonely is not really a phase, it's a feeling deep within. So my stand is that it's not really the anxiety that you do not matter at all, it's the certainty. This certainty is a hard thing to break out of, but I did, with a lot of help, and now I have friends and stuff. That is the reason I get really mad at the people that pretend to feel that bad for attention or the people that say everybody goes through feelings like that. NO! Not everybody does, the depressions they are talking about is people feeling sad! This depression is a feeling of hopelessness, utter hopelessness. The kind where you lie on your bed telling yourself to get up the entire Saturday but you never do. So i understand this phrase more than most people know so don't try pulling that fake crap on me!!!