Freewrite #2

"Winning isn’t everything…it’s the only thing.”
Hmph, what bollux. Winning is very important to me for I am a very competitive person. However I know that winning isn't the only thing. What happens when you beat your friends? What happens if you beat somebody at what they worked their whole life at? What happens when you, by winning crush someones dreams? Can any one person tell me that a victory, no matter what it's in, has never been hollow? To believe a quote so shallow is to cast aside something inside of you. What was it's name, oh yes COMPASSION!!! Sinking so low as to undermine everything that you think is right just for the sake of winning! Being competitive is different. Competitiveness is the drive to succeed, while this sort of drive is for domination, and to be quite honest domination is looked at, by society, as a negative term.

Freewrite #1

Loneliness is the anxiety that you do not matter at all.”
The truth has never been said more perfectly. Through out all my life, and especially in middle school, that has been a major part of me. (all of my life except high school) Having no friends is one thing but having no friends and feeling like you don't matter to anyone is another. Imagine the people who love you, parents, siblings, grandparents and relatives; now imagine how lonely you must feel in order to say that you do not matter to those people. It's a horrible situation to be in. Also, feeling this lonely is not really a phase, it's a feeling deep within. So my stand is that it's not really the anxiety that you do not matter at all, it's the certainty. This certainty is a hard thing to break out of, but I did, with a lot of help, and now I have friends and stuff. That is the reason I get really mad at the people that pretend to feel that bad for attention or the people that say everybody goes through feelings like that. NO! Not everybody does, the depressions they are talking about is people feeling sad! This depression is a feeling of hopelessness, utter hopelessness. The kind where you lie on your bed telling yourself to get up the entire Saturday but you never do. So i understand this phrase more than most people know so don't try pulling that fake crap on me!!!

SSR #4

Fahrenhiet 451 pg 120-End
So in this SSR I decided to delve deep into the thought process that was needed to figure out what Ray Bradbury was talking about(and its results) on page 127-128. Here Montan was near a gas station where when walking he encounters a vehicle that is presumed to be a car: "The police of course.......The beetle was rushing. The beetle was roaring. The beetle raised its speed. The beetle was whining. The beetle was in high thunder. The beetle came kimming. The beetle came in a single whistling trajectory. It was up to 130 (mph) at least." Montan came vrey close to getting crushed but he narrowly avoided the "beetle." When he looked back it was a carful (beetle full) of kids that had decided to hit him because he was walkingl. I wonder what would happen if the kids did that and succeeded? Would there be a story on the parlor about it? Would Millie miss Guy? Would Millie be sad that Guy was gone? Would Mildred even know Guy was gone? What would happen when the search hounds finally caught up to an already dead Guy? What would the viewers think of that tv? Would anything happen at all? I wonder......

SSR # 3

Farenhieght 451 pg. 73-120
In one of the many rants that Guy Montan has in this section there is one that deserves me writing about, and it is on page 73. Guy gets frusterated at Millie for she does not see why she should read and so he starts off on why; the really good part was "'Jesus God,' said Montan. 'Every hour so many damn things in the sky! How in hell did those bombers get up there every single second of our lives! Why doesn't someone want to talk about it! We've started and won two atomic wars since 1990!'" What a cool idea the fact that one of our biggest worries currently (war) is business as usual for them. What could possibly be occupying so much of there time that they have the ability to ignore a large, noisy shadow on them from the object in the sky above. Also.........oops my five minutes are up. :)

SSR #2

SSR2
Farinheit 451 pg 1-23
In this book the world is not the same as what we know. People are not allowed to own or read books. Also firemen are called to burn the books down, to start the fires instead of putting them out. One fireman, Guy Montan, starts the book spewing gasoline on a house that contained contraband books. The hose that the fuel is coming from is described, in detail as a python, spitting its venom on the world. I don't know why but this struck an image in my head that all fire in this book is green. All the fire, the ones inside and out of the body and mind, seemed poisonous and viral in nature. Almost as if the people in the fire and observing it are being slowly poisoned by the green glow of a flame.

My Summer Vacation

This summer I went to gunnison and did a seven hour atv trip. Also we saw some really cool fire works that took forever to end!